Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Back in Canada
I've been home over a month and I'm not entirely sure my exact feelings about it. A few things stand out:
-Seeing my nephew basically every day, picking him up and dropping him off in the morning and night is the highlight of my post travel days. Cheese, bus, shoe, up, mom, dad.....so cute.
-We Canadians are insanely polite. Not sure I've opened a door since coming back. Run into someone? Don't worry, they'll apologize.
-I'm fully aware that the majority of people aren't curious or interested when they ask what I do and say I've been away for three years. I get it, most people aren't interested or don't care. It is surprising the people that do care and ask real questions. Not sure what that means.
-I am happy to be back. I am. I do feel sad more than I thought I would, I feel alone even though I live with my family and have great friends in the city. I don't want to say I don't belong here but I don't feel completely immersed. The thought of spending the next 16 months here doesn't fill me with hope or excitement. I want to love it. Maybe it just takes time.
-I want to explore a foreign country all by myself extremely badly right now. Adventure and new countries has become a new part of who I an.
-I love seeing and hearing Asian people around me speak and not understand. It's wonderful.
-Showering in a real bathtub with my good gels, water pressure and heat is incredible.
-My mom loves me very much.
-I went to see X-Men all alone at the movie theatre. I'm very busy and popular.
-There are tons of beer here.
-Watching hockey and basketball live on tv makes me
happier than it should.
-We say eh a lot eh?
-Being able to attend Lauren and Abim's wedding was good for my soul.
-I'm not super friendly
-Essentially everyone has more stuff and money than I do.
-I wish I could post more but my life mostly consists of eating cereal, playing with a baby and thinking of Thailand.
-I'm 90% sure I will be living in Bangkok next year.
-I went to a bar that only played country music and everyone loved it. So did I.
-Nobody stares at me, gives me attention, calls me
handsome or cares that I'm white. I'm trying not to take it personally.
-I am incredibly lucky and grateful to have experienced
these last three years and hope that this is only the beginning.
This isn't supposed to come off as negative or me complaining. These are the things that have stood out after being away for three years. If you'd like to let me know what you think you can send me a message, just let me eat my cereal first.
"Sorrow is part of everyone’s lifetime and the consequence of an open and passionate heart"